Tuesday, October 31, 2006.
yuan yik is one awesome guy! he's the greatest nicest guy!. my report is totally impossible without him!
thank you so so so so(x 99999999999999999999999...) much!!!!!
my saviour.
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11:20:00 PM
omg. singapore singapore!! thr r just so many sicko ah peks here! today, thr's another one doing it again on the bus. i was jus too afraid that i couldnt think of anything but just squeezed past him n went to the front to sit. i'm ok already, i guess. think it happened jus too many times to me that i'v became kinda immune already. but really, singapore. if singapore's the safest place, then how dangerous can the most dangerous place be? damn it singapore.
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9:46:00 PM
**growls.. the report's killing me! i'm still short of the summary. damn. agrr!!
i'm so needing the familiar massage right now. this is like the longest period of time in front of the com. neck aches now. i need a tummy rub too. agrrr!! still a little girl. :P
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2:36:00 AM
Sunday, October 29, 2006.
didn go with them to the temporary hus cos i took too long to bathe. but i was at my fastest spped already. agrr.. nvm, anyways i helped them packed all ytd already. do ur stuffs urself.
so iwas thinking of these models,
nokia of cos, my mom's workin thr
6288, 5300, 7390 [ powder pink]
jazzed it up at 11:20:00 AM.
11:20:00 AM
jus came back from the mediacorp radio y.e.s 93.3fm's chinese music awards thingy. it started late. but the songs are nice, quite entertaining.
when we left, i led mel to the wrong place. so we had to walk major big rounds to get to the station. in e end, we'd to take cab, n the uncle was like.. but its so near..
hahas..
walkin at night is real nice cos of the cool air, i didn hav to sweat too. hahahs.. hmmm..
then we got mac, ate like hungry animals, bath rush and now.. off to sleep. tired.
oh, my phone's lost, ard in the house, but i'm too tired to find it right now. tmor stil hav got to go back to the temporary hus to move the stuffs, my family has got so many stuffs, not mine, duh.. they'r so so so messy, growls.. packin up afr them is so not what i'm supposed to do, not my things. hmph.
anyways, nights everyone.
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3:54:00 AM
Tuesday, October 24, 2006.
" you are always receiving alot of love care concern, and many other good things, that you will not notice when others give you more, n will only take notice when they give you less. "
true, reality hit real hard.
thanks.
hmmm... i met up with evan shermaine n shirley today, thou its only for awhile, but i had fun bcos its e best day of these few upseting weeks i had. my pri, sacss, chij classmates n school-mate. life is weird, destiny n fate are real weird stuffs. unbelievable. hahas..
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11:37:00 PM
Friday, October 20, 2006.
lookin at the past letters, messages n all. all sweetness and concern. that's real nice n comforting.
how i could ever thot that they meant nothing at the point when i used to read them? now i'm feeling all those anxiety, feelings that that person felt while writin those msges.
guess its all my fault for pushing away those i shouldn push away, n holding onto those who would hurt me so.
i'm having so so much mixed feelings on whether to gamble again by forgeting n doing them once more again. but i'v taken so many so many so many gambles like this before, to have only hurt in return.
but i guess even if i have a chance to change, i would not change any single bit. because, its just fate, it will happen sooner or later. and lessons hav to learnt too.
[
to the one who taught me many, who saved me, who showed me light:
u hav gave me beautiful things of life, thou u may have went away, leaving me stranded in a world without u, but i'm still thankful for the once beautiful stuffs.
really thank you, ames. the moon, that signature.
]
[
to the one nice guy:
something that i'v kept in for so long: not that i didn see those feelings coming, just that i see no future. so i'm acting nonchalant about all that u'v done. but in actual, feelings had been stirred, thus confused.
thou it may seem like i don't care, but i'v sth to say, which's, everytime u feel so terrible afr u drink, n all, n u want me to b thr. i would just so rush down to ur place n wait for u at e void, hopefully that i could help u when u need me. but i didn dare to mention this, afraid of the consequence. so i jus kept quiet. i may act like i dont give a damn crap about e things u'v done or given, but in actual fact, i do.. i still seriously cant see a future.
but still, i've always wanted to say," swthrt, i m sorry. "
but i guess he wont be reading this. whadsdause.
]
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to sheralyn:
i'm sorry, thou things may change,
but heys, wish u n ur bf happiness always. hold onto your happiness alrights?
]
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10:03:00 PM
Wednesday, October 18, 2006.
i was really disappointed to being angry.
i was close to tears jus now cos i was really really scared of doin as bad as last night. well i failed anyways.
what upsetted me was that, i thought ive friends, thou not all are my really friend friends, but i thot i had at least a few that close friends whom i could really depend on when i really needed them. guess i am not as important as their crushes, bf, or gf. sod best friends and good friends. i'v really extreme no trust in this kind of bullshits already. this time round i'm not giving a damn fcuking concern to these shit friendships, except jessica koh ming li. you arse-holes could just come to me yourselves, i'm no longer gonna be the one to make the 1st move, i'm no longer gonna make any move to make an effort to continue those so-called friendships. because i am sick of those disappointments already.
jess, really thank you for being there. really thank you, so much so much.
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6:29:00 PM
Tuesday, October 17, 2006.
i'm in so such a foul mood, i want to change my phone, but i dont know what to get.
that's e least.
what's more irritating is that today was the worse, i mean the worse of the worse practical ever.
i dont think i'm able to pass tomor. i did so many immediate failures. damn. i so wanted to cry but i pushed it off to e end of the lesson.
my instructor said about i'm not really good at night driving, asked me to sleep early n not to think so much. hais. how to not to think much? i hav extreme high expectations for myself when i know i can do well for doin well at something.
but my dad gave the best comforting words. "pass then pass, fail then fail.." its direct n true. i love it. hais. pray hard for tmor then.
thanks for your concerns, it helped alot thou u guys may not think so.
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11:58:00 PM
Monday, October 16, 2006.
went for that interview. hmmm.. its no longer for those collectable figurings. but nevermind, those stuffs are cute anyways.
n... i saw someone i havent meet for 2 or 3 or 4 yrs. hahas.. i'm bad at that.
anyways anyways. he's still lookin as hot. shining both from the inside n outside. hahas.. i'v got total stunned. ok. hahas.. get a grip my dear self.
hmmm.. he was once my very closed acquaintance. ermmm.. not close to being those friends kind. but nevertheless, he's one great guy.
but.. boo hoo hoo. he cant seem to rembr me!
hais. sad case. nights.
still.. =D
go with the flow people!
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11:22:00 PM
Sunday, October 15, 2006.
A new blog for a new start.
=)
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