lookin at the past letters, messages n all. all sweetness and concern. that's real nice n comforting. how i could ever thot that they meant nothing at the point when i used to read them? now i'm feeling all those anxiety, feelings that that person felt while writin those msges. guess its all my fault for pushing away those i shouldn push away, n holding onto those who would hurt me so. i'm having so so much mixed feelings on whether to gamble again by forgeting n doing them once more again. but i'v taken so many so many so many gambles like this before, to have only hurt in return. but i guess even if i have a chance to change, i would not change any single bit. because, its just fate, it will happen sooner or later. and lessons hav to learnt too.
[ to the one who taught me many, who saved me, who showed me light: u hav gave me beautiful things of life, thou u may have went away, leaving me stranded in a world without u, but i'm still thankful for the once beautiful stuffs. really thank you, ames. the moon, that signature. ] [ to the one nice guy: something that i'v kept in for so long: not that i didn see those feelings coming, just that i see no future. so i'm acting nonchalant about all that u'v done. but in actual, feelings had been stirred, thus confused. thou it may seem like i don't care, but i'v sth to say, which's, everytime u feel so terrible afr u drink, n all, n u want me to b thr. i would just so rush down to ur place n wait for u at e void, hopefully that i could help u when u need me. but i didn dare to mention this, afraid of the consequence. so i jus kept quiet. i may act like i dont give a damn crap about e things u'v done or given, but in actual fact, i do.. i still seriously cant see a future. but still, i've always wanted to say," swthrt, i m sorry. "
but i guess he wont be reading this. whadsdause. ] [ to sheralyn: i'm sorry, thou things may change, but heys, wish u n ur bf happiness always. hold onto your happiness alrights? ]
jazzed it up at 10:03:00 PM.
10:03:00 PM
her biography.
alanda ng shi jie.
16 May 1988.
taurus
NYP
Regrets kept me going. Memories leave me smiling.
as the saying goes,
don't cry because it's over, smile because it happened.
=)
dum- deedly- dum.
her luxury essentials.
snuggling under my covers
shopping
colours
JAZZ
jazz it up with.
rebonding Lancome Miracle [so magic] =) sewing machine =)
LEVIs
more tops
more skirts
more accessories
handbags
trainers
tracks stuffs
more of everything =)
most importantly, i wanna get a job!
